I strain, push open a 

wooden cathedral door

just a little more.

 

Arched top

above my reach

 

I am Atlas

push a world

that won’t budge.

 

Unhinged

I feel

like yesterday

when I read your note.

 

I feel like an

empty pocket

full of nothing.

Empty.

 

MT

mountain

snow

peak

climb

slip

 

afraid

state of

MT

 

I tiptoe in darkness

around the door

stare…

into light

and desire.

 

I shield my eyes.

What separates

light and dark?

 

Dusk runs to dark.

Dawn runs from it

I run from your note.

 

You are nothing but

MT     hope

You are nothing but

MT      sky

MT     field

MT     seeds

MT      jacket, shoes

 

I am MT.

 

Is MT OK?

 

***

 

OK      dream

OK      stay

OK      accept

OK      die

 

MT     today

MT     now

MT

 

OK      dream

OK      change

OK      leave

OK

 

OK is a state of mind.

OK is a state.

 

tornados and

barren eyes

MT.

 

 

MT  start

MT  end

I am nothing

and everything.

 

 

OK,

I am not

MT.

 

I am dreams.

 

Dreams are who I am

more than I am who I am.

 

Dreams are OK.

Dreams are food.

 

But if dreams are MT

am I OK?

 

If I am MT

are dreams OK?

 

If I am OK

can dreams be MT?

 

dreams

MT

OK

walk away

 

How do I feel?

            OK?

            MT?

 

Oklahoma is OK and MT.

Montana is MT and OK.

 

But what is my state?

              OK, MT?

 

Who am I?

 

Am I OK?

Am I MT?

Am I OK and MT?

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***

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Drink rum, toke.

 

Do you need to?

Do you need 2?

            or are you OK as 1?

            OK, MT?

 

OK, you are MT and OK but you

            toke, drink rum.

Are you still OK?

 

Are you leaving?

Did you walk out

            as 1 or 2?

And who are you now

            that you left?

 

Standing in the light,

are you OK or MT?

 

OK and MT?

 

Is it dawn or dusk?

 

Does it matter?

 

and…

Are you walking

toward?

 

or are you walking

away?